I'm in the Archipelago and I'm waiting to arrive. I'm in the Archipelago and I know I'm still alive. You finally told me where you had been thinking for so long. And it breaks my heart wide open but I know that I'll be stronger next time.
So goodbye my love, I'll miss it when it's gone. Goodbye my love, the ship is shipping on. Goodbye my love, I'll give it up into the fog. Goodbye my love, I think I knew it all along.
I'm in the Archipelago and I'm waiting to arrive. I'm in the Archipelago and I know I'm still alive. You finally told me where you had been thinking for so long. And it breaks my heart wide open but I know that I'll be stronger next time.
So goodbye my love, I'll miss it when it's gone. Goodbye my love, the ship is shipping on. Goodbye my love, I'll give it up into the fog. Goodbye my love, I think I knew it all along. I knew it all along. I knew it all along.
This is partly so I can remember what my life is like now. My days are like this: awaken early class meeting class volunteering or meeting meet with professor(s) concert or home Or other days class work schoolwork
Sort by song title: - First Song: "'Teneste la promessa...' ... Adio, del passato bei sogni ridenti" Giuseppe Verdi - Last Song: "Zissou Society Blue Star Cadet/Ned's Theme (Take 1)" Mark Mothersbaugh
Sort by time: - Shortest Song: "This is the Dark Part" Laren Weiss (0:11) - Longest Song: "Violin Concerto In D Minor Op. 35" Peter Iijitsch Tschaikowsky (34:24)
Sort by album: -First Song: "Plus au sud" Yann Tiersen -Last Song: "March of the Rotten Vegetables" The Flaming Lips
Top 10 Most Played Songs: 1. "In This Home On Ice" Clap Your Hands Say Yeah 2. "Naomi" Neutral Milk Hotel 3. "Upon This Tidal Wave Of Young Blood" Clap Your Hands Say Yeah 4. "The Skin Of My Yellow Country Teeth" Clap Your Hands Say Yeah 5. "Kiss Me" Sixpence None the Richer, haha 6. "Haiti" The Arcade Fire 7. "Tropical Ice-Land" The Fiery Furnaces 8. "Fade Into You" Mazzy Star 9. "Neighborhood #3 (Power Out)" The Arcade Fire 10. "Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)" The Arcade Fire
First five songs that comes up on Shuffle: 1. "Street Spirit (Fade Out)" Radiohead 2. "Dusty Miller" Alison Krauss 3. "Red, Red, Red" Fiona Apple 4. "Lonely Women" Ornette Coleman 5. "Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me" Mel Carter
Search... (I'm guessing I post the first one that comes up for each...) - Sex: "Brodels" 311 - Love: "(I Love You) For Sentimental Reasons" Nat King Cole - You: "(Let Me Be Your) Teddy Bear" Elvis Presley - Death: "101 Is A Hard Road to Travel" John Fahey - Hate: "Ah! Mon Beau Chateau" Claveau/Altery - Wish: "Bullet Proof...I Wish I Was" Radiohead
Have you ever stopped to think about how much trash 18,000 college kids can produce? What would happen, if a recycling program was instituted at our grand university? Well, according to calculations by Jessica Henry, the 2-year president of Students Promoting Interest in Nature, O.U. would actually make money from recycling its products. Of course, there would be initial costs such as buying bins, signs, etc., but eventually money would be made. The Royal Oak Waste Paper & Metal Co. actually pays schools for their recyclables and we'd utilize their company.
Now, you ask, how can a recycling program be instituted in the first place? A group has recently been formed specifically for this and other pressing environmental issues called the Environmental Development Committee. This lovely group of individuals simply needs to know that students care about the environment and the accepted proposals, like a Recycling Program, will be adopted. Thus, all you need to do is attend their meetings; your presence is telling enough. I've personally spoken to Jessica Henry about this matter and she said that someone attending the meetings would barely have to speak, since the group members simply need to be shown that Oakland University students worry about this issue.
And, if you're really ambitious, you could make posters about O.U.'s wasteful ways and stand outside the EDC meeting room, as a fun sort of protest. You could even write an e-mail or several to Professor Stamps, who is the chair of the committee or, better yet, write to our fine President Russi, who would be delighted to hear of your concern.
What are you waiting for? Get off that computer and go to the meetings!
It was a sunny Autumn afternoon and I was ecstatic, listening to Poco's Pickin' Up the Pieces. I marveled at the beauty the sun brought and continued on my merry way. Reaching the next destination, South Foundation, I started the laborious trek to the 3rd floor. Not before considering, however, that I had a great life: with 2 jobs and several scholarships, I was debt-free for the semester. Plus, working at Starbucks was not as terrifying as it once was.
Just then, who did I see on the second floor landing, but jolly ol' Nick, my favorite "partner" at Starbucks! His ever-relaxed manner calmed me and I turned off my iPod, as Poco blissfully serenaded, "where the folks are happy." After chitchatting a bit, Nick shifted the conversation to work and asked me how it was going. "Oh, pretty good," I replied, "I'm still nervous and uncomfortable, but it's definitely improved since the beginning." His reaction was somewhat concerned; I waited for him to speak. (This landing was a place of heavy traffic).
It's difficult for me to recall what he said next. Bluntly, working with me was "not horrible...but pretty close", though "you just gotta keep on working at it and you'll do fine." Soon after, we said our goodbyes and I started pondering over his statements. A minute later, I realized he was right. No matter how hard I tried, the person making drinks could rarely hear me and, if I made drinks, I had to hand out at least 2 "beverage coupons" per night. Most partners use one per month.
Some way or another, I let Nick's comments be indicative of the way my life was going. While walking to my car in the freezing cold, I realized I was leading a sad life. Taking 17 credits gave me, a freshman, no time for friends. At the time I felt pangs of loneliness and I repressed my feelings, telling myself that I had everything I needed and that's all that mattered. I needed to deal with my cluttered life. I drove home determined, only to sit in front of the computer, reading The Onion to try and cheer me up.
Forgetting about actually taking action to make my life better, I resorted to the motto of "Just wait. Be patient." Something interesting was bound to happen, I thought. Well, I waited too long and decided to join a few O.U. organizations this semester. I've been making some friends and things are generally going well, though I'm as busy as ever (like everyone else). At Starbucks, I always keep in mind what Nick said and do everything to the best of my ability, asking whatever question enters my mind. Most importantly, I've accepted my feelings as they come. Now, I listen to jazz to calm me down and reason out my feelings, then.
P.S. For the sendspace file of "Pickin' Up the Pieces", just look for the download link in the middle of the page. It won't hurt your computer.
As the accelerated campaign for the presidency persists, who should be the new chief of state? Barrack Obama's over-hyped run for the top seat in the nation has obviously placed him a step higher than other candidates, but can he solve the United States' problems? The simple answer is no.
What the United States needs in order to stop our troubles is a loyal, hard-working, perseverant man: Senator Christopher Dodd. (Just click on his name to see his campaign website).
Holding office since '74 (elected to the House of Representatives and later Senate in '80), Chris became key in passing laws regarding children's issues. After combating almost 10 years to enact the Family and Medical Leave Act , it finally passed legislation in 1993. Certainly, Chris is a man of his word, who will complete whatever plans he conceives.
Ever concerned with the welfare of others, Chris joined the Peace Corps during the late '60s in the Dominican Republic for 2 years. By living with and taking care of people from a third world country, it is evident Chris believes everyone should be treated humanely. It came as no surprise, then, when he, along with his fellow senators, introduced the Restoring the Constitution Act of 2007. Its most important facet is reinstating U.S. adherence to the Geneva Conventions. Something needs to be done to show the world that there will be no more Abu Ghraib prison scandals and, furthermore, this act benefits everyone, even those outside of the U.S. Vigorously fighting against oppression, Chris gets the job done.
Chris's great work to change some aspects of health care as as follows:
Chris, with a little help from his political friends, helped modernize the FDA's approval process for medication.
Chris wrote legislation to protect the mentally ill from isolation practices at mental hospitals.
Chris was key in broadening health insurance to 5,000,000 - 7,000,000 uninsured children.
Finally, Chris holds nothing back when voicing his views on foreign policy:
Chris is in no way in favor of the embargo the United States has toward Cuba.
Chris is highly critical of the Iraq War; declared the debate about U.S. Troop increase to be, "a debate about debating..."
Chris voted for NAFTA, which he believes has "...brought increased cooperation and communication."
From his many years in office, Chris gained the best qualities for the office of the presidency: knowledge and experience. Just watch him speak at a Moms Rising event:
As a child growin’ up in the cotton fields of Mississippi, my Pa and I had long discussions on whatever tickled our fancies. One topic we always came back to was virtues. Pa thought moderation was the most important virtue. Sincerity was always first in my book and remains so today. To keep it simple for y’all college students, here is how I’ll accomplish this in office:
By being truthful, you can never doubt anything I have to say. You can always count on me!
I think humans have become automatic lie detectors, so I wouldn’t even dare to try!
My intentions are always good and I will look at issues with an unbiased and honest eye.
Unlike all the other candidates, you won’t see me trying to paint a pretty picture of myself. Instead, I’ll talk to y’all like I would my own granddaughter. Then y’all can finally be rid of that political jargon!
I will show my sincere nature best when talking with leaders of countries around the world.
Because sincerity is the dynamic horse deep inside us, and the rider of this horse is our psychic being. Okay, folks, that was a joke, but seriously, sincerity is extremely vital to the office of the Presidency of the United States!
Please vote for me!
Roger Fiscal
Note: This is where I found the weird last bulleted quote thing, http://www.srichinmoylibrary.com/eastern-light-western-mind/27.html
I, Roger Fiscal, am hereby declaring my intention to compete in the 2008 Presidential Election.
I know what you college youngsters are thinking, "How could a 68-year-old retired Air Force One pilot ever hope to win this prized presidential office?"
Well, folks, I'm here to tell you I would make the best president y'all have ever laid eyes on, for the following reasons:
As a kid, I was forced to move so many times, since my parents were failed missionaries and were not able to find suitable vocations, that I came to know the economic and environmental issues of almost every state; in my free time, I would often read about the history of whatever state I happened to be residing in at the time. Therefore, I am quite learned in what actions should be taken, for some cases, in restoring each state to its economic and environmental glory.
Performing exceptionally in school, I decided, while living in Maryland, that it would be advisable for me to acquire a pilot's license. I did so and joined Andrew Air Force Base in Camp Springs, MD. My officers believed me to be the best in their fleet and, within a few months, was trained to pilot a Boeing 707-320B. My service spanned 3 (or was it 4?) Presidents of the United States and I came to understand the workings of the Presidency, through discussion with the Presidents and their entourages.
Now, I realize you college students have little time for reading the original 11-page pamphlet I wrote, which disclosed the reasons y'all should vote for me, so I created a handy-dandy list of what I plan to do while in office. Also included are some of my political standpoints.
The list follows:
1. End Sweatshops 2. Do Away With Wal-mart 3. Only renewable energy will be used, in order to stop Global Warming and the terrible effects it has been having on polar bears 4. Will institute new laws abolishing any unnecessary deforesting of the Rain Forests of the World, along with our quickly dwindling collection of trees, in order to help those innocent jaguars survive 5. End Global AIDS pandemic, with chosen group of scientists 6. Will work for social justice 7. Focus on hunger and homelessness, 8. as well as student rights 9. and environmental protection
I would like to thank the World Wide Interweb for helping me to figure out what issues college students really care about.
Thank you for your time, and vote Roger Fiscal (that's me!) (I) for President of the United States in 2008!
Before I forget, my campaign song is The Decemberists' Sixteen Military Wives, which I heard is a big hit with you college-goers! http://www.sendspace.com/file/s7kdr6
"Love you're such a sweet thing, good enough to eat thing. And that's just a-what I'm gonna do."
Splat. Sizzle. Wait 2 minutes and voila breakfast is born. I've been trying to keep Julie London's most famous tune in my head, so maybe the kids' breakfasts will turn out good. In between 1 and 2 minutes, the juice in me wavers. I don't know what to do about it. I feel really bad because they're trying to have a healthy meal and it never turns out the way they want. Maybe those asshole employees aren't putting enough fucking flour into the batter. Whatever. It's not my problem. I just wish they'd be a little gentler w/ me...they don't know what it feels like to have 110 volts coursing through your body only to be drowned in some gooey pre-made mix... Sometimes when I'm cooking their food, I try to make it in the shape of a Tetris piece. I wonder if anyone noticed.
You'll never guess what I heard! Angelina Jolie's social status has, by a strange turn of events, reach null on the Richter scale. I can't fucking believe it! I thought she'd never fall from grace! Well, maybe the newly anorexic Reese Witherspoon will take her place, now that she's on the market again! (I must say, I've only heard this in passing, when students open me for a few seconds).
There's this new girl that's been coming by on Mondays and Wednesdays. She's sooo tight...what I wouldn't give for a piece of that... Too bad she'd never understand me.
Ew...somehow a nail got in the batter today...I hope someone sues the bastards that did that. Gross.
Mmm..I wonder if Britney Spears will ever make a comeback. That bitch was smokin'. Goddamn pregnancy.
Did I ever tell you how much i love feeling that batter getting in all my crevices? It's better than coke. I don't know how. It's like being blown all over. Ahhh. Ohhh. Here comes another one.
"Ooh love, you're sweeter, sweeter than sugar. Ooh love, I won't let you go."
After much deliberation, I have concluded something I hate to be....Kewpie Dolls. This hatred began last summer, when I started babysitting.
The song "Masterfade" by Andrew Bird speaks of seeing a "Kewpie Doll Parade." I had thought that kewpie = keropi, the cute little frog Hello Kitty character thing, so I imagined these gigantic inflatable balloon sort of things, hovering over Andrew and his confidant, while they were drenched in confetti, since it was a parade and all. The first day I babysat, my babysitting mom showed me this:
She babbled on about how she's always loved Kewpies and still collects them. These creepy objects are all over the house: in their drawers, their toyboxes, and even in their photographs. It kind of scared me the first couple times I babysat.
Still, when I found out that those lyrics were about these disgusting naked disturbingly smiling excuse for a baby-toy, my heart ached.
They've actually grown quite popular in Japan; search "Japanese Kewpie" on YouTube and you'll find a really terrifying advert for some pasta sauce. Go here for a picture of one of 3 kids I babysit (pic is large) : http://www.geocities.com/waboo887/2006-06-30_0619.jpg
Full lyrics to "Masterfade" well you sure didn't look like you were having any fun with that heavy-metal gaze they'll have to measure in tons and when you look up at the sky all you see are zeros all you see are zeros and ones you took my hand and led me down to watch the kewpie doll parade we let the kittens lick our hair and drank our chalky lemonade it's not that I just didn't care I must admit I was afraid and I'm awfully glad my finger's resting gently on the masterfade the masterfade I coulda played along the masterfade I coulda played Mah Jongg but it just takes too long and I just can't remember which way the east wind blows does it matter? if we're all matter what's it matter does it matter if we're all matter when we're done? when the sky is full of zeros and ones I saw you standing all alone in the electrostatic rain I thought at last I'd found a situation you can't explain with GPS you know it's all just a matter of degrees your happiness won't find you underneath that canopy of trees if the green grass is 6 the soybeans are 7 the junebugs are 8 the weeds and thistles are 11 and if the 1s just hold their place the 0s make a smiley face when they come floating down from the heavens you took my hand and led me down to watch a papillon parade we let the kittens lick our hair and drank our chalky lemonade you squeezed my hand and told me softly that I shouldn't be afraid 'cause all the while your finger's resting gently on the masterfade the masterfade I coulda played along the masterfade I coulda played Mah Jongg but it just takes too long and who the hell can remember which way the east wind blows when you're lying on the ground staring up at an inverted compass I mean Christ who knows?
MEIN LEBEN from the last couple months "so, dad's commanded me to write you an e-mail about how my life's going. college has been pretty fun, not too difficult. I'm doing well in my intro to china class I got a 3.6 on the first exam 3.95 on the 2nd and a 4.0 on the third. I've been doing pretty well as well, just kind of hanging out w/ different people every weekend. I'm still a horrible driver and can't see myself ever getting used to it. I have a lot to do this weekend and worked myself into a frenzy, so I became really tired, but i have to go to work in about 5 minutes. I'm finding I don't want to be friends/have no interest in people my age. I've met lots of people, but only one of them has ..."survived"? We've been hanging out every week for the past 3 weeks. he's pretty nice, but he's definitely terrible. if you've ever seen my fair lady, he is the spitting image of henry higgins. he does plays and stuff and I've seen a few w/ him. we saw nunsense last night and it was terrible. there was this one scene in which a nun sniffed rush and she was very high and it was not funny in any way. yeah, but generally I've been worse than I was a couple weeks ago, but that's just b/c I'm super super nervous for all these exams and papers that will be due around the same time. I have to write 4 this weekend, hence the anxiety-ish attack. I'm seeing a counselor on wednesday at OU, but I don't know if it'll help. I really don't like working at starbucks, but I refuse to quit. Babysitting is very very easy and I wish I had more time to work for her. I haven't really kept in contact with people from AHS, but no matter, they'll be back for holidays anyway. You should read Mr. China, it's a really great book. and umm I guess that's it? What've you been up to? become a chain smoker yet? I know someone who has and man it's gross. Hm well I gotta run to work, Buh bye Grace"
I saw a really great bathroom today. The towels were multi-colored and there was an over-abundance of hygiene products. Also, I've never used a sink so low. I used it twice, for good measure.
I also saw The Royal Tenenbaums today. It was a fantastic film and I forgot where I was in certain moments. I also had lots of German chocolate and popcorn [+ a buster bar earlier]. Everything was lecker.
I went to Dancin' in the Street today and man was that enjoyable. There was this guy drinking vodka from a Gatorade bottle, who sang and tried to play this strange, oblong instrument by hitting his fist against it. He also played the harmonica and maracas, along with the 7-piece band, The Jello Shots. (4 guitarists, 1 drummer, 1 main vocalist, and the old, drunk man)
My parents just came home and the four days without them were well spent. I met people I normally wouldn't be allowed to meet and generally had a rip-roaring good time.
Tomorrow I plan on going to Dancin' in the Street again. Takers, anyone?
nonsense song children from "The Birds" were singing
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"until 3"
very appropriate right now:
I just don't know what to do with myself I don't know what to do with myself planning everything for two doing everything with you and now that we're through I just don't know what to do
I just don't know what to do with myself I don't know what to do with myself movies only make me sad parties make me feel as bad cause I'm not with you I just don't know what to do
like a summer rose needs the sun and rain I need your sweet love to beat love away
well I don't know what to do with myself just don't know what to do with myself planning everything for two doing everything with you and now that we're through I just don't know what to do
like a summer rose needs the sun and rain I need your sweet love to beat love away
I just don't know what to do with myself just don't know what to do with myself just don't know what to do with myself I don't know what to do with myself
I'm usually not one to post lyrics, but hey, there's a first time for everything.
(in the morning) exercising isn't helping and having lots of money isn't either. i'm not sure if i'm looking forward to my brother getting back from japan; he'll probably just become another thing for me to do. but hey I made a new friend, isn't that something? yup so that's been my summer since june 17th, how's your summer been going?
1. Name: 2. Birthday: 3. Place of Residence: 4. What makes you happy: 5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last: 6. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ: 7. An interesting fact about you: 8. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment: 9. Favourite place to be: 10. Favourite lyric: 11. Best time of the year: 12. Weirdest food you like:
RECOMMEND 1. A film: 2. A book: 3. A song: 4: A band:
PLUS 1. One thing you like about me: 2. Two things you like about yourself: 3. Put this in your LJ so i can tell you what I think of you:
Regina Spektor's song Edit repeating itself in my head
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Alright, I know I have a lot to do this weekend/week, I just can't remember it at this moment, so I'm going to attempt to write everything down that needs to be done. Weekend: Do Testosterone project (10) Do math homework/study like a madman dafür (9) Interview 3 people for FLW (8) oh duh, almost forgot, write german scholarship essay write honor's college essay look up more scholarship things contact Jude Nixon contact office of admissions for talented scholar award and anibal excellence scholarship think of something creative for testosterone project (being creative needs a different topic thing) that may be it..but it's probably I just can't think of more things at the moment Schedule for weekend: Friday - 6- ? iron t-shirts for fasting, hopefully get about 50 done Saturday - 8-10:30 work on project and math 11- ? ironing party ? - go to set Sunday - 9-4 working at student acheivement testing 5-? finishing math, interviewing people, FINISH PROJECT Week: Monday - Before school: video I missed b/c of pointless senior forum School (math quiz, testosterone presentation, landfill field trip for conservation) 3-5 extra point board 5-? homework, ironing t-shirts Tueday - Before school: most likely asking mr. carroll questions, since that's what I usually do every morning School (conservation test) 2:30 - 3? most important fasting/WLC meeting ever (will be putting in many many good words for gail's video) 3-6 Rehearsal 6-? homework Wednesday - ehh wednesday and thursday are pretty similar Friday - Before school: get there at 6:30 and help set up food for breakfast school 3-7 count money, get food, do everything to prepare for the dinner, basically Saturday - 6: 30 a.m. - ? FIRST robotics competition, reminder to self: e-mail mrs. drummer and tell her you can't come to the meeting on tuesday b/c of fasting Sunday - 5:30 p.m. jazz vesper's concert, don't really want to go, but my dad's in it, so I'm obligated I hope I don't get mono again. (Once again, I was going to write, "Don't read this" for my subject line, but you all know what happened last time...).
oh gosh this semester is going to be so freakily busy. well, kind of. February 17th - February 25th: Nassau w/ parents (ehhish) March 3rd: field trip w/ comp AP March 6th - March 10th: Foreign Language week ewhhhhhhhhhw March 11th: Robotics Competition March 25th - April 1st: JAPAN!!! YESSSSS (to visit my brother) April 6th - 8th: MUSICAL April 10th - April 24th: The Germans are coming. ahhhhhish and there will be lots of days when we go on conservation field trips and there may be a day in which i'll see a play at Stratford with the Shakespeare class or something. oh yeah. and for the next 6 saturdays or so I'm going to be working at siemen's on our WONDERFUL robot. i think i've finally overcome my fear of heavy machinery/tools. haha. and when I'm not doing something after school or don't have too much homework, i'm going to be working at siemen's during the week as well. ooh and March 11th is the second day of some robotics competition, so I plan on going to that. AHH and then there's the musical on April 6th, 7th, and 8th. ^ okay, that's it. yeah, I just wrote what I remembered | there on the list thingy. ooh does anyone remember the chorus' schedule for the musical? I thought it was something similar to Tuesday and Thursday 6-9? maybe? I was going to write "DO NOT READ THIS" again, but people are more prone to read it if you write that. haha.
I have 8 things I need to study/learn. anatomy test, pdm test, and speaking exam for German are on monday, so it's imperative for me to learn those over the weekend. Order of importance: Anatomy PDM Current Issues Sociology German Since I have 8 things to do and about 24 hours to do everything i'll write/memorize the German exam tonight, study neurology things for 2 hours tonight.. List of 8 things: 1. Anatomy neurologyish test 2. Anatomy exam 3. PDM test 4. PDM exam 5. C.I.L.S. exam/quiz 6. Sociology exam 7. German speaking exam 8. German exam Schedule for weekend: Today - do/memorize German speaking exam, study for anatomy test/do some of Reflex lab/study for anatomy exam/do review packet for anatomy Saturday - 8:00 - eat something w/ a lot protein quickly, go to room and study neurology things for Anatomy 9:00 - mass review of chapter 6 for PDM 10:00 - Review sociology packet/notes 11:00 bis 11:15 - rest 11:15 bis 12 - review German speaking exam 12:00 - read C.I.L.S. journals 1:00 - continue review packet for anatomy/read anatomy book 2:00 bis 3:30 go to Rachel's and help her w/ neurology things 3:30 bis 4 eat something 4:00 - start PDM review packet/review for exam 5:00 - review for German exam 6:00 - eat dinner 7:00 - review Sociology packet/notes 8:00 - mass review of all things anatomy until I croak/eat lots so I won't be too hungry in the morning Sunday - 8:00 - review chapter 6 for PDM 9:00 - read C.I.L.S. journals 10:00 bis 10:15 - eat something 10:15 bis 11 - review German speaking exam, probably won't need that much time, so rest ein bisschen 11:00 - exam reivew for anatomy 12:00 - sociology review 1:00 - eat something/exam review for PDM 2:00 - review (irgendwie) for German exam 3:00 - anatomy exam review 4:00 - read C.I.L.S. journals 5:00 - dinwah 6:00 - read C.I.L.S. journals 7:00 - German speaking exam/German exam 8:00 - chapter 6 PDM review 9:00 - neurology anatomy review call Nada and Trisha ooh I have mono if you didn't know and the doctor said that the only things wrong w/ me are my liver enzymes, so I can be more active, hence the huge studying load